Tuesday, March 28, 2006

state of idleness....

oh well...here we go again...after trying to find work...after surfing all the common places to go to in the net...after excessive chatting..here i am, blogging just because...I AM IDLE!!

tada! wow...i started being idle yesterday (yup...idle on a MONDAY!) and up to now, there's no task to do...(where are all the work have been?)

(what to do...what to do...what to do........ ** over and over again ** )

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

tick-tock-tick-tock

time is always running. no matter what i do, no matter how hard i try to do things and to be able to accomplish tasks at the same time, still, time is not enough. i can only handle so much things at a certain period of time. and what really sucks is that i miss doing things that could've benefited me and other people around me.

in as much as i wanted to please everybody, i can't. i only have a single body and it is just natural that i do one thing at a certain time. sometimes, i realize that i have been doing more things that i don't enjoy doing. it's not that i don't want to do these things, but, as i think about it...there are other things i wish i am doing at that time.

when i think about it, sometimes, it tires me out. it is very tiring to run after time and try to pack all of those things within a 24-hour limit.

everyday has been a struggle for me to be able to do things for myself and for other people. most of the times, i neglect to pay attention and have that time for myself. i seldom think what would make me happy but what i need to do. and sometimes, i miss doing things that will not only affect me but the closest people to me. if i can only make time stop or extend it into a few more seconds...i would. it will give me a better opportunity to complete everything that needs to be done and what i wanted to do.....

Monday, March 13, 2006

overdrive...

last sunday, i finished my 5-hour refresher course for driving and i can say that i did very wel...** ahahha!!! applauds!! ** my driving was very smooth and i am very proud to say that when i was driving uphill, the engine went down only once (note: driving uphill is quite difficult coz you need to be able to manage the clutch and gas appropriately so that the car won't move backwards).. ** smiles proudly **

my instructor even commented that (another note: all of the following phrases are true) "nice driving good luck"... haha! he said that i should just practice some more to be able to drive faster til i get used to driving..

after my driving lesson, i was expecting that my dad would let me drive our car.. and he did! but short distance only..this is for real, i thought. and so when i slid inside the driver's seat, clutch down...stepped into the brake and put it in gear one..i said to myself "THIS IS IT!!" and then i put down the hand brake and started to put some gas and put the clutch in its working level...and then...............MY ENGINE SHUT DOWN!!! D@MMIT!!! kuso!! watdahell?????

i tried it once more...started the engine and repeat the steps again..but for the 2nd time...i didn't budge....and the engine shut down!! darnit all!! it took me about 3 times to re-start the engine until i was able to drive the car..

i dunno what happened...i really felt to stupid..to think that i was very happy since i got a very positive feedback from my instructor (who is very strict) and when i tried our own car..in front of my dad...i was like...a moron? =|

though my dad didn't say anything after that, i really felt bad..really. but that incident won't stop me. i will try again and again and again...until i will be able to drive our car...

up to now i am still think what went wrong last night.....

** hmmm...did i step into the gas pedal? i think i didn't hear the sound of the engine roaring after i-thought-i-stepped-into-the-gas-pedal...oh well..

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

the 4th.....

today will be our 4th monthsary (wow!) time flies so fast we hardly notice that we've been together for four months already! but you know what, both of us felt like its not only 4 months since we've been together..a lot more than four months... hmm maybe because we both feel so secure about our relationship..unlike for some new couples who feel a lot of insecurities...

i have always been good with words especially in writing but at this point, i don't know what to write (haha!) funny...maybe i am just so overwhelmed....but 1 thing is for sure...i am happy...